A breather, a reflection...

Sometimes I wonder if my life's been lived to it's max, whether it's been used to it's potential. But ironically, I seem to tell myself over and over again to take things easy and not to bog myself down with so many commitments.

The coming week will be one hectic week, with deadlines after deadlines being packed up higher and higher, and the climax being the day before the gates of the holidays open. 3 different projects to be handed in (thankfully Ms Peters has decided to shift the deadline for MLE).

Alright, the point I'm trying to drive across is...

My confused decision as to which to choose. The current pair of shoes I'm wearing is one that is materialistic, pragmatic, and goal driven. Everyday I head to school, telling myself that I've to score no matter what. And I end up being very tired the next day from all that extra worrying and stress I've put on myself, so much so that sometimes I miss lessons cause I had to catch up on needed rest.

Is it worth it? I really don't know for sure, but I do hope it is. Currently, I take up as many opportunities that come by my way - Showhosting, Events, Mascots... And hope that they will, in time, become useful or even beneficial to my CV. But then I stop and take a look (like now) and see myself giving up one a lot of life's little enjoyments. I've even forgotten when was the last time I went to the beach.

It is important for everyone to balance work and play all the time, so that we would not neglect other important aspects of our life. However, if one part doesn't permit the other, how am I to go about it? I've tried to seek time, squeeze every inch of the bottle to squeeze the last bit of available time out for a movie. But it resulted in tighter deadlines and such.

Life: Is it really a balance of the 2? Or is it the journey of trying to find that balance? I really wonder.

Reynold